Enough is Enough...

Much like the song, today I realised that I have been lied to and duped.

Today was the day when all my hopes crashed to the ground and my worst fears have come true.

Today, I looked at his website and found a shiny new blog, detailing the great time had at a local event he attended.

So much for all the anguish and the *I have not been able to do anything or speak to anyone for the past two weeks* Sure. Apart from having a great time at that local event and posting photos from it.

Sure. Apart from having been updating your business site when you told me you were winding it down to come back to the UK so that we could run our business together.

Sure.

I emailed him and let him know what I think. There was no swearing involved, but instead a resigned knowledge that I have wasted two years of my life loving a man who can so easily deceive me. Or so he tried.

What gets me is the question *why*? Just to rebuild his confidence in a life where (according to him) he was thought of as a loser by most people around him? Very likely, I'd say.

For a relatively cheap 6 months holiday in the UK? Still possible, I guess.

Of course, a tiny part of me now (not the biggest part, as it used to be) still thinks that this is not possible. It is not happening. Not him. Not that man.

But I am only too aware that there are people out there very capable of deceit. I just never thought it would be him. Not for a single, solitary moment.

The man I love. The man who lied so much to me.

Surely it is not possible...

Well, dear reader, it all seems to point to it being very much possible.

The sad thing is that I still want to believe that he loves me. That he is not capable of this. That he will tell me I am being silly and that there is a very plausible explanation to all this.

Even sadder is that I don't even think he will reply... And all I want to be able to say *I don't care*.

Now I have to really move on.

Wish me luck.

Andie