Haven't had much to say for a few days.

Either I am managing to get on with my life, or I am just avoiding it.

Cannot decide which...

But I did get some news on Tuesday from the man I used to, confidently, call my boyfriend.

After a silence of almost 2 weeks (it woud have been two weeks today, actually), I received an email full of anguish, aparent self-doubt, apologies and much stuff which I cannot make head or tail of, to be perfectly honest...

No break-up request, but no reassuring words either.

As it stands right now I could not tell you, dear reader, whether I am still in a relationship or not!

I replied to him. In fact I replied twice. No words of recrimination passed my keyboard. Much the opposite.

I have not heard anything back.

I am tired of this game.

I do not know what to make of it all.

Feeling like shit takes a hell of a lot of energy...

Andie